Janalovinglife“Only that in you, which is me, can hear what I’m saying.” Ram Dass
Dear Ones,
The gift of awakening is a mysterious one…You never know when or how it will happen. But you can be sure of one thing: It will happen by grace. One day something happens, something wakes you up. And suddenly everything looks very different to you. The word awakening is possibly the best word to describe this inner event which changes your life forever. It really feels like awakening from a deep sleep, from dreaming a dream. In one moment you are believing everything about your dream, mainly because you don’t realise that you are just dreaming: There is you, there are others, there is your story. Then something wakes you up and your perspective changes dramatically. Maybe you were chased by a lion and as real as it was now awakened you find it perhaps amusing while just a moment ago you were scared to death. It just felt so real to you…
For most of us awakening to our true nature is a gradual process while for some it is more abrupt and quite radical. But no matter how your unique journey looks, when you start awakening from a dream of separation and separate self, everything looks very different to you than when you were deeply asleep and totally identifying with your body, personality and your personal story.
If you are reading these words you are already awakening. Perhaps you are awakened enough not to believe the game of limitation and separation any more and so are no longer able to play according to those old rules. Yet, chances are you might not be fully self-realised. Not yet fully established in this clear knowing, not yet living the truth of your inner discovery all the time. The truth that you – and everyone else – are an aspect of the Divine manifested temporarily in the body. The truth of oneness and that you are always connected to Source and to everyone, that there really is only One manifested as many. The truth that you have voluntarily chosen to be born and play this game of hide and seek with yourself, the game of limitation, the game where you voluntarily accepted the veil – the veil of forgetfulness of who you really are – so that you can discover the truth from yet another point of view.
And although the path towards full self-realisation and enlightenment is the highest path you could take, it’s good to be aware that some stages of awakening might feel uncomfortable. You see, it’s not always comfortable to wake up! As the old ways of being and doing start falling away you are still yet to find the new ways and are learning to be in this world but not of it. Perhaps learning not to be too detached or alienated from those who are still deep in the dream of separation and limitation and at the same time not betraying your truth either. It might feel like a balancing act at times, like there is no one to follow, like you are stepping into uncharted territory…
In these moments of creative void which the ego/mind always wants to avoid at all costs, if you can just remember that the same grace and unconditional love which brought the initial awakening is guiding you right now and will take care of each of those steps ahead of you too, you’ll be able to trust and surrender to the natural unfolding. You’ll be able to trust and surrender to the mystery of awakening…And you’ll know in your heart that it is guiding you back home.
I look forward to meditating with you.
Lots of love,
Jana x x
